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I see it in your eyes. You are asking me to save you. I can’t.

 

I will stand by your side and be still with you. I will help you to find that deep dark cave within yourself.

 

The cave is filled with riches beyond your wildest imagining. Within the cave your essence resides. Gleaming, glowing, sparkling. You must go deep within yourself to find it there. It is worth more than you can ever earn. It will set you free.

 

Take my hand. Let me show you. We will both dive within ourselves. You don’t have to know the way. Just follow within yourself. Let me light your way.

 

Breath and sink down. See the glow deep within the cave of yourself. Feel it. Breath into it. Allow it to expand. This is your essence. Allow it to expand to every cell of your body and beyond.

 

Create from here.

We all have to make them. Most of our daily choices are simple. Get out of bed, get dressed. Getting dressed can present choice challenges. I’m a woman, it’s not always simple. I try to keep getting dressed simple. Let me expand that to say it’s not hard to choose if I want to get dressed or not. It’s the choice of what do I feel like wearing. What am I doing? What feels good? Many times I would like to have more to choose from.

 

When choices feel challenging, what’s the real issue? It’s the black and white issue, the right or wrong issue. Life just is rarely that clean. Haven’t you ever made one choice, then all of a sudden the thing you didn’t choose looks better. Damn. Now sometimes you can find ways to have both. I like that. I know most of you do to. We find ways, excuses. For example when you are with someone else and you order dessert. Sometimes you are willing to order different things and share. Yea, and that doesn’t always work out now does it.

 

So what is it really? I’m taking this way to seriously. Good ol school training maybe. There’s only one right answer. I guess we can add religious training in there, that’s a big one. We all want to be the one’s that got it right. Especially when our consequences are hell. That makes choosing a hot topic. Yea, sorry.

 

OK, so I’m taking a deep breath. I’m going to laugh at myself now. Yea, go ahead, laugh at yourself also. OMG sometimes I just go off the deep end and actually believe what they taught me in school, life is a test. Sometimes there are multiple choice questions, fill in the blank and essay’s. Thank god for extra credit work.

 

As it turns out, life is just a series of choices. Sometimes my choices feel difficult because I just make them that way. Because even I don’t really trust I can have something better if what I currently have isn’t really fitting well. Let’s face it, even if you know in your heart it’s the best choice you need to make, it’s not black and white. It still hurts. Why? Because I haven’t jumped in with both feet. I’m looking back. I’m dragging my feet. I’m staying entangled just in case I want to change my mind. Because there was still good stuff back there. But, was it enough? Did I try my best? Yes, I did. I enjoyed the good stuff. I can have more. I know I can. I may have to wait a bit and make a few more choices. Like Goldilocks sitting in the different chairs, tasting the different bowls of porridge and beds. Finally finding what feels like a good fit. Even then, after a good snooze she was frightened out of a comfortable situation. She had to make another choice. Sometimes I need a poke or prode to make those choices. Can you relate?

 

I’m making a cleaner choice today. I have my head faced forward and I know I now have room for something that feels good. When I find myself looking back, which I know might just happen. I’m going to turn around and around and dance. I’m going to dance and do those things that make me feel good. I did my best back there. I’m going to create something even better today.

 

In Love and Joy,

Susan

 

 

Yesterday a storm passed through my area.  The clouds rolled in quickly as I headed out to the library.  I didn’t get too far when I realized just how bad it was.  There wasn’t anything at the library worth driving right into a heavy storm for.  I got home and ran around securing windows, then outside getting my hanging planters down. Back inside, wet but safe.

I enjoy storms most of the time. This one stirred up a bit of fear. Enough to reach out to my family and make sure they were someplace safe. The worst passed quickly.

I started contemplating how storms crop up in our lives in different shapes and sizes.  Just like the weather storms these situations can feel scary and destructive.  They push our buttons and bring our fears to the surface like sea serpents.  If we get caught in the emotional turmoil we can feel like we are drowning.  We all find ourselves getting tossed about by our emotions sometimes.

I have been re-reading the book, Power vs Force by David Hawkins.

He created a consciousness scale by using kinesiology.  In his scale 200 is the critical line that distinguishes the positive and negative influences of life.  I had been having a tough time in a relationship with someone I had no choice but to deal with.  His energy feels forceful.  I called it being an energetic bully.  I didn't feel good being around this person and I never knew when he would energetically attack me.  My first negative experience with him felt like being punched in the stomach.  I felt like the wind had been knocked out of me.  It was nothing he physically did.  He lied to me to manipulate the situation and force himself into having the upper hand.  Hence my re-reading this book.

One of the things I thought I would try was to imagine a large pyramid over the space I was in.  I set the intention that the pyramid would adjust the energy so that anyone coming into the space would have to be at the level of 200 or above or at least willing to go there.  It has brought some interesting experiences.  I imagined the pyramid over the property, not just myself.

I had been focused on protecting myself from this person.  What came about was looking at my own integrity.  I had been holding money to benefit the group of people that I work with.  The money they would raise would just disappear at the corporate level.  It felt like an injustice and made me mad.  It had nothing to do with this current person.  It had been weighting on my mind and I didn't like being in the situation of keeping a secret.  Secrets create energetic tension, even if you keep a secret because you think you are helping.

Someone came along and resolved it for me.  The money was stolen.  Circumstances lined up that allowed that energy to be cleared.  My integrity began coming back into balance.  I felt a sense of relief even though I wasn't happy that it had been stolen.  The tension was relieved.

Storms serve a purpose in our lives.  We can make them a more positive experience if we take responsibility.  Use them to clear and cleanse.

I noticed a few other relationships undergoing some cleansing this week.  It's all good.  It just depends on how you look at it.

It's time to make some other changes, but right now I'm going to rest.

In Love,

Susan
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