Posts Tagged ‘anger’

Sigh…Rough day today.  Happy to be at home, in my gardens, at my computer with the cat curled up on my lap as I type.  Any where but at the senior center today.  Such a heavy feeling today.  It was challenging to be there.  Had that feeling of wanting to run away.  There was anger around me, turmoil and frustration.

I took a few moments from time to time to acknowledge myself as a powerful creator, creating my experience.  I called my energy back, feeling the energy surge through me.  Centering myself in that power.  Allowing myself to feel my feelings.  It was difficult to observe without judgment today.  I didn’t want to be in this soup so to speak.

I had to ask myself what I could do to change this.  What change do I need to make?  What do I want?

Here I go again, peeling the onion, so to speak. The onion being ME and my spiritual path. My journey in this life.

Perfection. Ugh. We can get caught in it like a web. Wound so tight that we can’t move for fear that we won’t get it right or it will be messy. What is it? Anything you may hold dear. The closer it is to your heart the tighter you may hold it.

How do you get yourself to move? Give yourself permission to make a mess. Give yourself permission to do it wrong? But do it.

Here’s one of my examples. It was an “ah ha” moment. I was struggling years ago to create the perfect class schedule. Yea, I know it might sound silly. I was teaching numerous yoga classes and trying to figure out the BEST days and times. I wasn’t getting anywhere because I couldn’t get it right. I was wound tight around the idea that there was a perfect schedule.

I stopped what I was doing and went to my art supplies. I had a fairly large piece of laminate that was already prepped and waiting. I gave myself permission to make a mess. There was no right way in that moment. Nothing I could do wrong. I painted. I followed a flow of pleasure. Whatever color felt good, whatever stroke felt good. I did it. I let the energy flow.

I’ll tell you it’s an abstract piece. Afterward I sat down and finished that schedule in no time. Done. No worries. Whew. I could breath again. I could move. I had to find someway to get myself moving. Someway to give myself permission to just do it.

I found it interesting how many compliments I received on that piece of art. The energy spoke to people. It was raw, honest and angry. I was angry at feeling so stuck. At that point the anger was healthy. An anger that I could channel into setting myself free.

It takes energy to set yourself free. If you are using a mask of Spiritual goodness you may be hiding that energy. Stuffing it down because there is this belief that to be Spiritual means you are always serene and happy. That’s a load of crap. Life can be messy. Messy can be great fun with the right attitude. Oops, sorry I used the word “right” now didn’t I. Perfection just creeps in everywhere now doesn’t it.

If you are continuously attracting the circumstances around you by what you are thinking and feeling then you realize the importance of taking time to check in with yourself.  You know what I’m talking about.  Those days when something hits you between the eyes and you feel kinda beat up.

Someone was just relaying her experience on a trip where she lost her drivers license, and went through every possible check at the airport under the name of you have been randomly selected.  Hmmm…do you have a target on your back or are you caught up in a vibration that you aren’t enjoying. Your experiences are by vibration.

I’ve had my own experience lately with a very angry gentleman and a controlling woman.  I would say they are both very controlling but with different techniques.  OK, I’m not a victim.  Yea, I may want to enjoy that role for a moment as I vent.  But the quicker we come around to ask ourselves “what’s happening withing me” the sooner we will shift the experience.  “They” will either leave or feel no need to act out.

The sooner we can stop focusing on the negative the less energy goes that direction.   It’s amazing how one person out of group can get your attention with negativity and you put your focus there and get stuck.  Then you whine and think about it and complain about it and on and on.

The sooner you can remember all the other nice people in the room the better.  Oh that’s right how many nice comments you’ve had.  How happy everyone else seems to be that you exist.  So you tick one person off.  Focus on all the people that appreciate you and you will get more of the same.

The other will leave or get quiet.

“When you begin to understand Law of Attraction, and you understand that which is like unto itself is drawn, then it is easier and easier to understand that you are offering a signal, and the entire Universe responds. And when you finally get that, and you begin to exercise some deliberate control about the signal that you offer, then it really begins to be fun, because then you recognize that nothing happens outside of your creative control. There are no things that happen by chance or by circumstance. There is nothing that is happening because of something you vibrated a long time ago or in a past life. It is not about what you were born into. It is only about what you are, right now, in this red hot fresh moment emitting.”

-Abraham-Hicks

Emotion is an important part of our creative process. What do you do when you are feeling angry and annoyed. You don’t want destructive creation which can stem from anger. You can use anger as a spring board. If we keep in mind it’s all energy. Our emotions, no matter if we label them positive or negative, they are a flow of energy.

The first thing to do is to identify why you feel angry. For example, someone has something you want. Or they have something you think you need. Ultimately what is the end result you want? What do you think you will get from the “having?” Happiness? Love? Good health?

Here’s the moment when the light comes on. When you can identifiy the underlying need you are trying to fulfill. You have the opportunity to stop focusing on what you don’t think you have. You claim your power back and use your energy and power to create what you desire.

Someone else having what you think you need does not keep you from having your desired outcome. The trick is to follow it the trail far enough back to identify your true desire. Is it the car? The relationship? The vacation? Or is it really feeling rich, confident or loved?

Find the truth and the universe will help you fulfill it.