Posts Tagged ‘emotions’

Sigh…Rough day today.  Happy to be at home, in my gardens, at my computer with the cat curled up on my lap as I type.  Any where but at the senior center today.  Such a heavy feeling today.  It was challenging to be there.  Had that feeling of wanting to run away.  There was anger around me, turmoil and frustration.

I took a few moments from time to time to acknowledge myself as a powerful creator, creating my experience.  I called my energy back, feeling the energy surge through me.  Centering myself in that power.  Allowing myself to feel my feelings.  It was difficult to observe without judgment today.  I didn’t want to be in this soup so to speak.

I had to ask myself what I could do to change this.  What change do I need to make?  What do I want?

I was just reminded that Mercury Retrograde starts tomorrow, Friday, August 20 and lasts for 3 weeks.  This is always a good time to take some extra time for yourself.  Take time to journal, self reflect, slow down a bit.  It’s not a time to rush forward into anything.  It is a time when issues and old patterns surface.  Take the time now to reflect on them.  Don’t push.

This is a wonderful time for healing work.  I have time available for new healing clients.

It’s been a wonderful afternoon and evening.  Let’s just include the whole day in that wonderful.  It’s Friday, my short day at work.  Had my eyes examined, no not my head.  Stopped at Boscov’s and bought a few clothes on sale, yea.  Had dinner with one of my best friends at one of my favorite Tai restaurants.  I’m grateful for spell check because I seem to have a mental block for spelling restaurant correctly.  Then we saw the movie Eat, Pray, Love and it was great.  I saw a 2-1/2 star rating on it today and think that was from an unenlightened person.  Some comment about the movie being about a self absorbed woman.  Well, I’m thinking they just don’t understand the inner journey.

Life is good.  I appreciate the contrast.  I know I can still enjoy life while I am processing a feeling of lose and heart ache.  My vessel is strong enough to hold both.  I can love and grieve at the same time.  I can appreciate the beauty around me.

It’s all me.

It’s a great day to play this game called Life. Years ago I attended the event of a Guru where I heard the phrase, “It’s a great day to die.” It appeared melodramic to me at the time.  It was a student who spoke of it to the Guru.  He was referring to his ego and requesting assistance from the Guru.

We each have to find our own way to awaken from the illusion we have created in this life.  If for no other reason than to realize we have more influence over what is happening right now.  You aren’t a helpless human being pushed and manipulated by some unseen Heirarchy.  Unless of course that’s what you want to create.  Can you believe you have the power, wisdom and abundance to create whatever you desire?

Re-claim your power from the illusion.  Name it as an illusion.  A wonderful game.  Feel the power come back to you.  When you are focused on fear you have given your power over to another person or thing.  You can also give your power over to pleasure if you forget it’s an illusion.  I believe this is where the phrase, “Money is the root of all evil.” comes from.  Money is an object that is not capable of evil.  People forget.  They can become obsessed with pleasure to the point of destruction.  That’s when it has power over you.  That’s when it has become an addiction.  An obsession.  When you are willing to lie and cheat.  Then it isn’t true pleasure.  Then this “pleasure” is based in fear.

True pleasure and joy does no harm.  It is honest.  In fact as we experience our true pleasure we bring healing to those around us.  Use your gifts and talents that bring you joy and pleasure to uplift.  As you benefit, so do those around you.

Re-claim your divine joy.

In Love,

Susan

You were “predetermined” to have a joyful, expansive experience, and the
way in which you will do that is all up to you. All other choices are for
your physical format. Everything is still in the process of being created.
There is no creation that has reached its completion.

— Abraham

Here I go again, peeling the onion, so to speak. The onion being ME and my spiritual path. My journey in this life.

Perfection. Ugh. We can get caught in it like a web. Wound so tight that we can’t move for fear that we won’t get it right or it will be messy. What is it? Anything you may hold dear. The closer it is to your heart the tighter you may hold it.

How do you get yourself to move? Give yourself permission to make a mess. Give yourself permission to do it wrong? But do it.

Here’s one of my examples. It was an “ah ha” moment. I was struggling years ago to create the perfect class schedule. Yea, I know it might sound silly. I was teaching numerous yoga classes and trying to figure out the BEST days and times. I wasn’t getting anywhere because I couldn’t get it right. I was wound tight around the idea that there was a perfect schedule.

I stopped what I was doing and went to my art supplies. I had a fairly large piece of laminate that was already prepped and waiting. I gave myself permission to make a mess. There was no right way in that moment. Nothing I could do wrong. I painted. I followed a flow of pleasure. Whatever color felt good, whatever stroke felt good. I did it. I let the energy flow.

I’ll tell you it’s an abstract piece. Afterward I sat down and finished that schedule in no time. Done. No worries. Whew. I could breath again. I could move. I had to find someway to get myself moving. Someway to give myself permission to just do it.

I found it interesting how many compliments I received on that piece of art. The energy spoke to people. It was raw, honest and angry. I was angry at feeling so stuck. At that point the anger was healthy. An anger that I could channel into setting myself free.

It takes energy to set yourself free. If you are using a mask of Spiritual goodness you may be hiding that energy. Stuffing it down because there is this belief that to be Spiritual means you are always serene and happy. That’s a load of crap. Life can be messy. Messy can be great fun with the right attitude. Oops, sorry I used the word “right” now didn’t I. Perfection just creeps in everywhere now doesn’t it.

Need some TLC?  One of favorite comforts is a mug of tea sweetened with Stevia.  Check out the benefits of Tulsi Tea or also known as Holy Basil.  It does wonders for heart health, stress, and respiratory issues such as allergies and asthma.

I was listening to a relationship coach the other evening and they said something interesting that has me thinking and reflecting.  Their statement was, “The Spark in relationship comes from our differences, not our similarities.”

Reflecting on my own relationship I can’t say that I agree.  I don’t think you can put “spark” in a box and neatly define it.  I remember our first date.  The sparks that were flying had nothing to do with differences.  I remember being excited that we had similar languages, so to speak.  We were both familiar with Law of Attraction, we are both creative, and spiritual.

Do our differences create spark?  Sometimes.  I believe we have both enhanced each others lives with our differences.

I really believe “spark” is felt from a vibrant life force energy.  When my partner is creative and excited about his own life.  When he is caring for himself I find him much more attractive.

What do you think?  What do you believe creates the “spark” in your relationship?

Thank you for touching my own inner longings by realizing your own.

I realize I’ve been afraid of my longing.  I’ve locked them away.  I believed they were impossible to have.  You proved me wrong by realizing your own.  You set healing in motion by allowing yourself to have more.

There is no greater blessing you can give the world than to realize your dreams.  Live your happiness and joy and you lift the energy of others.  You blaze a trail like a shooting star.

Thank you for allowing yourself to be you.

I just checked out the influence of an eclipse, wow.  I’ve been feeling the effects today on many levels.  Check it out.  How are you doing?

Astrology

Love sets no boundaries or restrictions on your freedom.  If you need to leave in order to be happy I will let you go.

If I let you go and you return then I know you truly love me.

If I hold you and restrict your freedom, if I demand you prove your love this way then I will never really know your love.

I must allow you to be free.  Allow you to fly.  We will all benefit from your happiness.  Your happiness is my happiness.