Robert Scheinfeld sets the stage in this book for you to see life as a game. One of the games you are playing is with money. OK so far. I love his work so far. I chose to read this book because it is recommended in both books Matrix Energetics and The Physics of Miracles by Richard Bartlett. He is an amazing creator and healer. I would love to attend his workshops. I'm working my way there through his books so far.

Robert Scheinfeld also references another of my favorite books The Holographic Universe and one of my favorite movies, The Matrix. He has my attention.

Here's one of he's Key Points: You aren't "watching" your Human Game hologram like you'd watch a movie, play or sporting event. Your Expanded Self is simultaneously creating the hologram and popping you right smack into the middle of it as the player of The Human Game.

He goes on to say, "The patterns your Expanded Self creates in The Field is real. But everything else you see and experience in your hologram in Phase 1 of The Human Game is just a holographic illusion. The Human Game is designed to be an ultimate Game that tricks you into believing an illusion is real."

OK, this is juicy. I just wanted to share a bit. My nose is back in the book. Enjoying it on the deck with a pot of tea. Happy dreaming.

I woke up this morning feeling exhausted and decided not to go to work. I also realized I pushed myself the day before. It didn’t look like much, but I joined some people for dinner when I was already feeling unusually tired. I took a 15 minute catnap and could have taken more. Then I felt annoyance as I went to the event because I didn’t want to go. I felt obligated. I didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. So I’m paying for it today. Maybe it wouldn’t have made a difference, but the fact that I didn’t really want to go is the issue.

The real issue is I was avoiding the possibility of someone objecting or feeling hurt. Why is it OK for me to feel hurt? Why don’t I think they can handle dealing with their own issues.

I’m sure you’ve heard the saying “Take one for the Gipper.” That’s the saying I was hearing in my head this morning. Is that what I think I’m doing? Being heroic. Then I had another funny thought. What would the world be like if we didn’t people didn’t take that shot for someone else? How would history be different? I’m not a history buff and I can’t think of any accounts off the top of my head. Do you know of any?

How would your life be different if didn’t do things out of a sense of obligation. What if we all just learned to accept the answers people gave us. Even when they didn’t do what we wanted them to do. Can you let something go if someone turns down an invitation without some comment to follow that may induce guilt or a feeling of harassment? Don’t you love it when it’s meant as a joke? A joke in disguise. Not funny. Did it feel funny. No, but we politely laugh don’t we.

The truth is present. There is an energy exchange with or without words. If it didn’t feel good, it wasn’t funny. Which reminds me. If I do something out of a sense of guilt or obligation the energy I am bringing isn’t pleasant either. I’m not doing them or myself any favors. I’m bringing tension. Hmmmm….what are you bringing to the party?

Here I go again, peeling the onion, so to speak. The onion being ME and my spiritual path. My journey in this life.

Perfection. Ugh. We can get caught in it like a web. Wound so tight that we can’t move for fear that we won’t get it right or it will be messy. What is it? Anything you may hold dear. The closer it is to your heart the tighter you may hold it.

How do you get yourself to move? Give yourself permission to make a mess. Give yourself permission to do it wrong? But do it.

Here’s one of my examples. It was an “ah ha” moment. I was struggling years ago to create the perfect class schedule. Yea, I know it might sound silly. I was teaching numerous yoga classes and trying to figure out the BEST days and times. I wasn’t getting anywhere because I couldn’t get it right. I was wound tight around the idea that there was a perfect schedule.

I stopped what I was doing and went to my art supplies. I had a fairly large piece of laminate that was already prepped and waiting. I gave myself permission to make a mess. There was no right way in that moment. Nothing I could do wrong. I painted. I followed a flow of pleasure. Whatever color felt good, whatever stroke felt good. I did it. I let the energy flow.

I’ll tell you it’s an abstract piece. Afterward I sat down and finished that schedule in no time. Done. No worries. Whew. I could breath again. I could move. I had to find someway to get myself moving. Someway to give myself permission to just do it.

I found it interesting how many compliments I received on that piece of art. The energy spoke to people. It was raw, honest and angry. I was angry at feeling so stuck. At that point the anger was healthy. An anger that I could channel into setting myself free.

It takes energy to set yourself free. If you are using a mask of Spiritual goodness you may be hiding that energy. Stuffing it down because there is this belief that to be Spiritual means you are always serene and happy. That’s a load of crap. Life can be messy. Messy can be great fun with the right attitude. Oops, sorry I used the word “right” now didn’t I. Perfection just creeps in everywhere now doesn’t it.

I don’t  like to feel helpless.  I want to take charge and fix things.  Can you relate to this?  As I listen to people tell me about their pain and suffering there is a part of me that wants to fix it and make the pain go away.  I must admit it is for my sake as well as theirs.  I feel their pain, fear and frustration.  I want to fix it so I don’t have to feel it.  Contact with them is painful.  That’s the judgment.

The challenge is to try not to rescue them.  It doesn’t work anyway.  I know from experience.  It doesn’t empower them.  Then what do we do?

I call it holding space or energy.  You know they have the resources and answers within themselves.  My intention is too empower them.  Know they have what it takes to face this challenge.  There are plenty of tools to give them.  I find they must be given with care.  They have to be ready for those tools or they will just be thrown to the side and rejected.  When I talk about tools that could mean supplements, books or healing methods.

I need to stay present and aware of my own energy, being careful not to push energy at them.  If you have children, they will give you plenty of practice!  I have experienced this over and over.  If I try to push or manipulate the solution it falls flat.  If I I am present and in contact holding this space the energy moves and  solutions open up.

I am grateful for every breath.  Each breath is a new opportunity.