Posts Tagged ‘self love’
Witness
Sigh…Rough day today. Happy to be at home, in my gardens, at my computer with the cat curled up on my lap as I type. Any where but at the senior center today. Such a heavy feeling today. It was challenging to be there. Had that feeling of wanting to run away. There was anger around me, turmoil and frustration.
I took a few moments from time to time to acknowledge myself as a powerful creator, creating my experience. I called my energy back, feeling the energy surge through me. Centering myself in that power. Allowing myself to feel my feelings. It was difficult to observe without judgment today. I didn’t want to be in this soup so to speak.
I had to ask myself what I could do to change this. What change do I need to make? What do I want?
Feeling Blessed
It’s been a wonderful afternoon and evening. Let’s just include the whole day in that wonderful. It’s Friday, my short day at work. Had my eyes examined, no not my head. Stopped at Boscov’s and bought a few clothes on sale, yea. Had dinner with one of my best friends at one of my favorite Tai restaurants. I’m grateful for spell check because I seem to have a mental block for spelling restaurant correctly. Then we saw the movie Eat, Pray, Love and it was great. I saw a 2-1/2 star rating on it today and think that was from an unenlightened person. Some comment about the movie being about a self absorbed woman. Well, I’m thinking they just don’t understand the inner journey.
Life is good. I appreciate the contrast. I know I can still enjoy life while I am processing a feeling of lose and heart ache. My vessel is strong enough to hold both. I can love and grieve at the same time. I can appreciate the beauty around me.
It’s all me.
Claim Your Power
I have read numerous books on creation. This one makes the most sense to me. His method feels like it covers the whole spectrum. It goes deeper than think and so it shall be, or write it down and make it happen. This is about training yourself to see the illusion of life as an illusion. It's about working through your beliefs and images. You aren't sweeping them under a rug and using a lot of energy to hold them down. You are inviting them up. This isn't for the weak. Be ready to commit yourself. Trust that your higher self won't give you any more than you can handle.
In Joy
It’s a great day to play this game called Life. Years ago I attended the event of a Guru where I heard the phrase, “It’s a great day to die.” It appeared melodramic to me at the time. It was a student who spoke of it to the Guru. He was referring to his ego and requesting assistance from the Guru.
We each have to find our own way to awaken from the illusion we have created in this life. If for no other reason than to realize we have more influence over what is happening right now. You aren’t a helpless human being pushed and manipulated by some unseen Heirarchy. Unless of course that’s what you want to create. Can you believe you have the power, wisdom and abundance to create whatever you desire?
Re-claim your power from the illusion. Name it as an illusion. A wonderful game. Feel the power come back to you. When you are focused on fear you have given your power over to another person or thing. You can also give your power over to pleasure if you forget it’s an illusion. I believe this is where the phrase, “Money is the root of all evil.” comes from. Money is an object that is not capable of evil. People forget. They can become obsessed with pleasure to the point of destruction. That’s when it has power over you. That’s when it has become an addiction. An obsession. When you are willing to lie and cheat. Then it isn’t true pleasure. Then this “pleasure” is based in fear.
True pleasure and joy does no harm. It is honest. In fact as we experience our true pleasure we bring healing to those around us. Use your gifts and talents that bring you joy and pleasure to uplift. As you benefit, so do those around you.
Re-claim your divine joy.
In Love,
Susan

You were “predetermined” to have a joyful, expansive experience, and the
way in which you will do that is all up to you. All other choices are for
your physical format. Everything is still in the process of being created.
There is no creation that has reached its completion.
— Abraham
Take One for the Gipper
I woke up this morning feeling exhausted and decided not to go to work. I also realized I pushed myself the day before. It didn’t look like much, but I joined some people for dinner when I was already feeling unusually tired. I took a 15 minute catnap and could have taken more. Then I felt annoyance as I went to the event because I didn’t want to go. I felt obligated. I didn’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings. So I’m paying for it today. Maybe it wouldn’t have made a difference, but the fact that I didn’t really want to go is the issue.
The real issue is I was avoiding the possibility of someone objecting or feeling hurt. Why is it OK for me to feel hurt? Why don’t I think they can handle dealing with their own issues.
I’m sure you’ve heard the saying “Take one for the Gipper.” That’s the saying I was hearing in my head this morning. Is that what I think I’m doing? Being heroic. Then I had another funny thought. What would the world be like if we didn’t people didn’t take that shot for someone else? How would history be different? I’m not a history buff and I can’t think of any accounts off the top of my head. Do you know of any?
How would your life be different if didn’t do things out of a sense of obligation. What if we all just learned to accept the answers people gave us. Even when they didn’t do what we wanted them to do. Can you let something go if someone turns down an invitation without some comment to follow that may induce guilt or a feeling of harassment? Don’t you love it when it’s meant as a joke? A joke in disguise. Not funny. Did it feel funny. No, but we politely laugh don’t we.
The truth is present. There is an energy exchange with or without words. If it didn’t feel good, it wasn’t funny. Which reminds me. If I do something out of a sense of guilt or obligation the energy I am bringing isn’t pleasant either. I’m not doing them or myself any favors. I’m bringing tension. Hmmmm….what are you bringing to the party?
Self Esteem
I can’t make you feel better about yourself. I can only reflect to you what I see and feel. You choose what to believe. You can accept it or reject it based on your beliefs. Love yourself.
I remember having a hair cut I wasn’t so sure I liked. I had some inner turmoil going on about it. Once I decided I liked it, without saying that to anyone, people started to compliment my new cut.
It is our self acceptance that gives others permission to love us more. Our energy field allows them in.
Spark
I was listening to a relationship coach the other evening and they said something interesting that has me thinking and reflecting. Their statement was, “The Spark in relationship comes from our differences, not our similarities.”
Reflecting on my own relationship I can’t say that I agree. I don’t think you can put “spark” in a box and neatly define it. I remember our first date. The sparks that were flying had nothing to do with differences. I remember being excited that we had similar languages, so to speak. We were both familiar with Law of Attraction, we are both creative, and spiritual.
Do our differences create spark? Sometimes. I believe we have both enhanced each others lives with our differences.
I really believe “spark” is felt from a vibrant life force energy. When my partner is creative and excited about his own life. When he is caring for himself I find him much more attractive.
What do you think? What do you believe creates the “spark” in your relationship?
Statement of Being
As I move into this time of creation, I feel the power of something bigger than me, moving with me, supporting and empowering me. I know all things are possible.
As I explore how I am going to create the healing I desire, I will notice this support and acknowledge it. I know that I do not have to figure this out all at once.
All I have to do is begin right where I am and consciously choose to move toward what I want.

My life is right now a time of discovery and creation. Out of my own being I feel the joy and freedom that comes with knowing I can create reality.
Unplug
In this era of technology it’s important to unplug. Turn off your phone, TV and internet and spend some quality time with yourself and your loved ones. When was the last time you spent time with someone you cared about without checking your phone or internet?
Meditation is another opportunity to unplug. Or maybe I should say it’s another way to plug into a higher source. It’s easy to get away from a regular meditation practice. I know this first hand. Sometimes it feels like there is so much to do that you can’t possibly take time for yourself. It’s worth it though. I can also attest to the fact that when I take the time to practice some form of meditation I function better. It doesn’t have to be sitting quietly. Sometimes I’m just too keyed up to start there. That’s what I like about active meditations like Tai Chi, yoga or even walking. It helps me to move energy and quiet my mind.
The idea though is not to just go through the motions and let your mind continue it’s babble. To use activities as meditation you need to bring your focus inward. Bring your focus into your breath. Use your breath as the bridge to expand your awareness into your body and quiet your mind. Become the observer.
If you don’t feel you have the time you can start small. Take 15 minutes. Try taking a class. A commitment to a class helps as well as the group energy.
This is a great gift.
In Joy.